Inside a boombox, one day for every
pill or Percocet that I ate
They got me all hooked up to some machine
didn't want you to know I was struggling
Feels like I'm underwater
submerged like a submarine
Just heard that nurse say,
my liver an d kidneys aren't functioning
Been flirtatious with death,
It's arrivederci, same nurse,
just heard say they're unplugging me
And it's your birthday, Jade,
I'm missing your birthday
I fucking hate when you hurt, Hai
thank you for waiting to open gifts
But, girls, you can just open 'em
Wish I had the strength to just blow a kiss
but I can't make one, I'm frozen stiff
I yell, but nothing comes out,
I'm crying inside, I shout
My vocal cords won't permit me,
I scream, but it's not aloud
I just thought about the aisle I'll never
Never see you graduate in your
It's 'bout to be 2008, how's
And, Proof, I'm truly sorry if I let you down,
The thought of no more me and you
Nikes like new for me for school
Doody, I'm trying, but you,
you were the glue that binded
I'd give anything to rewind it
I had to walk down my halls
and constantly be reminded
By pictures, all on my walls and I
couldn't sleep at night 'cause
brain of you on that table
Me falling across your body,
not able to stand to save you
God, why did you take him?
I'm tryna keep his legacy alive,
but I'm dying, where's Nathan?
Smile pretty for pictures,
always cherish each other
and I'll be in the back of your memory
And I know you'll never forget me
Just don't get sad when remembering
And, little bro, keep making me proud
You better marry that girl 'cause
Just know that if I could be there,
And should you ever see parenthood,
I know you'll be good at it
Oh, almost forgot to do something,
I actually learned a lot from you
You taught me what not to do
To have one last heart-to-heart honest honest
honest and open talk with you
Doody, I see you, I go to walk to you
And I can feel my soul leave my body
and float across the room
Nurses lean over the bed,
Then the sheet over my head,
Girls, please don't get upset,
I see them cheeks soaking and wet
As you squeeze hold of my neck,
so forcibly, don't wanna let
With every second, each closer to death
But suddenly I feel my heart begin to beat slow then a breath,
Must've guessed the cheat
I'm trying to rewind time like a tape
Find an escape, make a beeline,
I need to re-find my my inner strength
even if a steep climb I must take
I'll put out this last album,
One hundred percent finished,
I'm hanging it up , fuck it!
Excuse the cursing, baby,
though they portray me as cold
And if things should worsen,
I'm pledging to throw this
Shred these old letters I wrote
All that old pathetic loathing,
like a rematch, outdo Relapse
With Recovery, Mathers LP2
Help propel me to victory laps
Consider the last four minutes as
The song I'da sang to my daughters
If I'da made it to the hospital less than 2 hours later,
And came back like a boomerang
I'm up, Tuesday, it's mornin',
4.8
