I keep writing to myself
these letters, guidance, reminders
about the things that keep me awake
During these nights when
I should probably be asleep
I've always been expecting
someone else to be there for me
Telling me what I'm
really supposed to do
with this pathetic life
Giving away the chance
to fulfill my dreams
At some point I was realizing that I am never
gonna be able to forgive myself
If I go on with my life like this
Selfishness,
my way to escape the unhappiness
I felt my sins through my skin
I'm ready for salvation, not falling down
With these thoughts I keep wearing
All my life, I've kept on waiting
I follow my scripts,
can't read it in my body
with my own blueprints
I found what I came looking for
I won't let, I will never let the past
come between me and my happiness
At this point I realize that I am never
gonna be able to forgive myself
If my life is gonna end up like this
Then I cannot dream a single dream anymore
I keep wondering what is wrong with me
If I cannot dream,
a single dream anymore
I felt my sins through my skin
I'm ready for salvation, not falling down
With these thoughts I keep wearing
All my life, I've kept on waiting
Can't you see, we should not grieve
We all need a brand new beginning
Trying so hard, to save my soul
You must be desperate where you are
Or at least afraid of, what I've become
I must be dead, in a way, while I lie
Or at least I'm terrified of what I had done
No, no, no, no
I shouldn't be, I shouldn't be,
I shouldn't be a slave
I felt my sins through my skin
I'm ready for salvation, not falling down
With these thoughts I keep wearing
All my life, I kept on waiting
Can't you see, we should not grieve
We all need a brand new beginning
Trying so hard, to save my soul
I keep writing to myself,
these letters, guidance, reminders
about the things that keep
me awake
During these nights,
when I should probably be asleep